Pink is my Signature Color

Trying to hold on its hard no doubt.  I wish I can tell you what it feels like, I have to remember that every drink of water, I'm flushing cancer out of my body.  Now trying to imagine a body with no boobs.....I think nipples are a waste, do I really need them? Oh the chemo.......

This was not a good week..

http://ww5.komen.org/IWasDiagnosed/IveBeenDiagnosedwithBreastCancer.html?itc=emoentpnt:5 Here is why I can't eat, tired and just ticked off!!!!

The following article will provide information of what types of drugs I am getting, http://www.herceptin.com/about/?gclid=CNjOgsHV7rMCFQioPAodVHYAYw#her2?cid=her_we_F001021_P000517&c=MBHRBC7489

I really needed the fluids....I guess on chemo3 will need the extra day, it really sneaks up on you. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Ok so my Chemo3 kicked my ass. Today going to get fluids to help with nausea. Keeping spirits up...thank you for your prayers.

http://www.kansascity.com/2012/11/24/3933426/for-cancer-patients-post-surgery.html What a good story about reconstruction story. This is what I will be doing. More reading for me!!!!!

Today went well, extra meds to help with nausea. Kinda grumpy didn't sleep at all last night. Currently laying down and resting waiting on more side effects.   I'm ok though.

Went to dinner at friends home, met an incredible spiritual women who blessed me beyond compare and to end I read a passage to her and her grandaughter had the same passage without me telling her. I felt the Lord move through me!

Let me first say that I am forever grateful for my life. Having Breast Cancer has certainly changed my life.  No more taking things, stuff, ideas and breathing for granted. I value my life and will fight  through.  It's hard but I am determined. Peace to all!

No nausea day!

All is good today. Will rest this weekend, Tim will make sure of that!

Robin Roberts I forgot about Robin Roberts, the strength she gives battling Breast Cancer and then recieving a bone marrow transplant. She is my Hero!

Well, radiation after surgery in March for 6 wks....Good news though, tumor in right breast shrunk! 

Having eyes checked with Dr. Christy. Since chemo started, my eyes have been really blurry so much Tim had to take me to work last week.  I hear that the chemo days the eyes thus the problem. Dr. Christy will follow my journey as well.

Officially hair all over falling out. Hubby cube me tonight!

Was thinking........ Its said that you will have good days some bad days who would have thought? We take our lives for granted and don't think the days. Well, for me, it will only get better, live better all!

Feel ok, I have the comfort in my little cubbie and lots of crackers.  Everyone here has been so supportive of me.  One of the girls got a food drive going for Tim and I.  They incredible.

My Sissy, her family, Mom and Dad came down for early Thanksgiving. I was so great! Thank you all so very much. Love you.

I can really feel the effects of the Herceptin...I feel very tired, hard to open up a jar of peanut butter, and now my eyes.  Its kinda of funny that I use to push planes, load bags in the cargo hold and now I my body is doing things that I never thought.  I am ok with the changes but can't say it is easy.  Just trying to stay strong and make it through one day at a time.  My best friend in the world is so great to me. I do not know how I could make it without him.  Love you baby!

Thank goodness one round of Herceptin.....feel good today. Mom, Dad, Dee and family will be here. I'm so happy. I need to give thanks and praise to my Lord and Savior...

My muscles, the bad taste in my mouth, no taste, nausea, pain in stomach..this is hell! Called Dr office, Oxycodone is good stuff.....

I feel like gaging.......the side effects are virtually kicking my ass....

Let's give a go again. Feel much better..lots if stuff to keep me upright today and put my sea bands back on too.

3 rounds of chemo on Friday, went to work today and ended up in the ER. I think I will need one more day when I have 3 rounds. Thank goodness, Friday is one round. Tomorrow will be a better day.  Thank you my co-worker's for helping me today.

First day to work after the chemo, still fell nausea, shakes and headache. Guess this is side effect hell....the road ahead is going to be tough and sometimes I feel like I can't do it. I have to remind myself to keep pushing through, its hard!

First session of Chemo is kicking my ass with nausea. Lots of reading what I can have and cannot have. Glad I have the weekend to recoup for sure.  Getting ready to watch the Raider game. Fighting through...

Gotta keep my mojo up against cancer..you cant win!

First feeling, scared shitless. 4 hours later, an anticoagulant, benedryl, herceptin, carbonatin, taxotere through my port. I cried again it stung some.  I am so glad that my brother Terry was here.Tim came a few hours later. Don't know what I would do without him. Tonight struggling with sleepiness and constipation. Thanks Terry for the Sea Band. It's the shit! 

Kinda weird not having hair. Cancer Care was wonderful in providing my wig, hats and beautiful afghan that was hand made. I had passed this room and there must have been 10 little old white hair ladies making quilts & blankets. It was a beautiful scene....hum pictures I think!  Tomorrow is my first day with Chemo. I'm ready......my brother Terry is here. 

Thank God for Rhonda...it was shocking at first, we both cried a tear, hugged and kept asking...are you ok? Yes

Will find out surgery, stage of cancer & mastectomy of both breast...Kinda weird..... I look tired. I need a nap......

Hard to sleep last night, took my meds to help calm me down. Today, I get to know how, what, when, why, where about my cancer treatment which will begin tomorrow.

Last couple of days have been difficult and hard to talk but I must talk and don't hide. Called my doctor and have a game plan, medically, financial and mental.  I can tell you I will keep fighting and will start reaching out for help and support. Will check-in later today for more news from my surgeon....