Acceptance to BC
Finally, and it's ok!
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The Sky is so blue but...it's damn COLD!
http://youtu.be/y6Sxv-sUYtM Today is Wednesday and I am doing a lot of reflecting today. I am so thankful for all of my family and friends who keep me going. I have to say I was a mess a couple of weeks back but its all coming together. I keep saying I am going to do more fitness (which I need) but not doing it. Just writing this statement makes me a slacker and will be going to the gym right after this. I have to make myself accountable for the things I do and not just say them. Very soon, I think I will have to go to Lonnie Bush cuz this chick is not doing it! For the most part, I feel good and really in a much better place.....HAPPY.........
PT today
Feel pretty good emotionally. It's going to take some time. Just one day at a time. The support I have right now is incredible. Thank you NKC PT STAFF!
I can't let CANCER define ME!
The last week has been very emotional for me. It's becoming real that "I have Cancer". I never had time to digest it completely until now. I worked through it all not realizing that deep down my its been hard to accept. It is said that your whole being changes and nothing will ever be the same. Today is a start for me in acceptance. I will put on my warrior panties and press on to see a whole new world without cancer telling me what to do!
In My Head
It's the new year with so many questions and thoughts of being healthy. I guess its normal to feel this way. Sometimes I can't stop my mind from wondering. What I know now is that I will be going to some support groups to help with my thoughts. It is so hard and I really don't think that I have come to grips with the fact that I had breast cancer. I look at pictures before and wonder, did I have it then? THIS has changed my whole way of thinking and life. I try not to take things for granted and to give whatever I can, I pray and pray some more just to give me strength to get through the day. THIS is what I have at the moment. It's one day, one moment, one second at a time. I just need to give myself a break and just know that it will be ok.......