Pink is my Signature Color

Didn't get the job again. So many thoughts are going through my head. I just dont understand why. I try so hard especially now but it seems it doesnt count anymore. I just want to feel belonged somewhere for at least 5 to 6 years. I have to wonder is it because if chemobrain, how old I am, the color of my skin, my degree, not enough experience, to happy, to agressive, to little experience, to much experience,the temp agency(on a contract and it cost to much to get me out) WHAT? I was told DON'T GIVE UP yesterday over and over. Sounds inspiring but hard to believe when you have been knocked down so much.

Makes me happy today! http://spaceskc.com/photos/art-bra-kc/

Wow. Not a good day. I was once told you have good days and bad ones. I guess I need to keep praying and hoping that things will get better. I hear the words and I see them but that bad ju ju just wants to kick it with me. Maybe if I keep telling myself that I am amazing, it will sink in! Make myself a note: I am amazing

Ok, the last week or so have been about my body and how it looks. I keep going back and forth about fixing my boobs or not. My chest still hurts and I don't have all my strength still. Tim's says I shouldn't because I have been through so much but my head says do it. One side bigger than the other and still have radiation burns on my left. I don't know....I am Alive one more year and more to come. That should be the least of my problems.  I need to love myself more beyond the scares♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

I am still in awe of what I just accomplish. I just strutted my stuff on the catwalk in front of very important people announcing I HAVE KICKED CANCERS BUTT!! I still can't find the words because of its power.  There are times were my body just hurts and reminds me of the poison that took my body but I look at taking another breath and remember that I am Alive! ArtBra KC you brought me full circle and showed me SURVIVAL♡