Stay of of my head...crazy thoughts

Over the weekend, I did alot of thinking and know that going to the gym is the best thing for me. What I need to do is to STAY OUT OF MY HEAD. When I go there, the "what if's", "I can't" always surfaces its nasty head and makes me crazy.  I don't look for sympathy, just understanding that one day I may be UP and the NEXT down.  I have been doing something within the last couple of months, taking an interest in making my faces pretty. Sometimes when I look at it I see "Cancer" and what it has done to me. Just another way to getting past the emotional side of "IT". Let's see how I will do.