Pink is my Signature Color

First day back. Every 3rd Tuesday.  All connected,  anti-nausea,  check. Pain medication check. Still alive.....blessing!

I really, really needed to get back to work. Being at home makes your mind wonder to a dark place. Yep, I was there. Tomorrow,  I start my Herceptin and on May 10th radiation for 5-6 weeks everyday about 30 mins. And hopefully,  I can get these damn drains out of me next week. I am have way thru my treatment.   Please keep the prayers going for me. Thank you Jesus for pulling me out of the depths if hell (yesterday) and my biggest support,  Tim. I love you baby.

Really had sort out my feelings today with the help of family, friends and Jesus. I can't lie, it was a rough day especially for being a beautiful day. Thank you all.

I am so made that I have breast cancer. The shape of my body has changed. I have these doggone drains hanging off me and wont get them removed until next week.  My soul is feeling week again and I can't help it.

Well.....maybe next week. Me and my drains next week....uggggggh!

Sitting here waiting

It has come to me that I can not stop looking at myself in the mirror.  I would say that acceptance is what I am trying to get my head around.  I use to have DDD breasts and sometimes proud of them, now they are gone because of cancer.  I keep telling myself that it is all a dream and that I need to wake up but, when I look in that mirror, I see them gone and tell myself its REAL.  Some days, are good and others are the bad.  Having cancer changes you in so many ways and on different levels, what I know is that it is REAL and your whole life changes.  I keep telling myself, keep pressing forward, stay strong and FIGHT! I know that staying in my faith, keeps me going. I know that there is a reason as to why this is happening to me but only known to Jesus.  One day, it will be revealed.  For now, when I am in front of a mirror, I can only say thank you for keeping me alive!