Pink is my Signature Color

4 and counting for blood draw. I think I am actually scared this time. After 3 years you would think that I would be feeling ok. I feel my regular Dr. is not listening to me about what is happening. However, I must say I am one to not get to fussy about my pain level. I just hold it in until it reaches a point that I can't manage it. I take 6 different meds and it frustrating. My pain level has always been a high 8 but I have been taking an over abundance of Tylenol 1500 in one day to be exact. Dr. Miller did tell me not to go over this which I have not but it's crazy I take this daily just to function.  My neuropathy seems to be picking up strength and I can really tell it. Oh my stomach, I am so disgusted by it. Had the surgery to take my muscles and put in my chest for my breast. The normal person would bloat down there, I bloat up looking like I am preggers. But the worst thing about it is that I don't eat much and I don't understand. Yes, yes, I workout some, wa...

I read an article about Acupressure cane help with fatigue. I must say this is something to explore. After 3 years, still Cancer Free but my symptoms are still there of feeling tired and constant pain. It's so easy for others to tell you to "exercise". When you have experienced what I have, try not to judge. I'm not making excuses but being "mindful" as they say about how I feel. Yes I'm going to but throughout the day, tells me keep going, I can do it. At the end, I just say no. No more push. Soooo the little things like, parking the car farther, taking the stairs instead if the elevator, walking my dog just a little more than out the door. It's hard and I cannot lie. I keep telling myself just one more step. I can do this.

At PC office yesterday for my 6 week blood draw, I was poked 4 times (3 in the arm and 1 in the hand) by 3 different nurses and NO BLOOD. I must say, I was kinda scared and nervous. All of the nurses were kind but I was being persistent to get it over with, but on that last stick, I had to say no. I just can't do it. I'll do it again next week but pump myself with TONS of water. Let's just see how this goes next week Crystal😫

Here I am with my 6 Month check with Dr. Elia, lots been happening since: 2 falls, neuropathy, Diabetes type 2 and overweight. I think I got it all. Let's see what happens...

It's time for change however, change is not easy. Dealing with my blood sugar has been a hard for sure. Excerise and diet is the key but will have to revisit the doctor. I have been alittle out of sort and it's taking all of my energy and sanity to stay above it. The American Cancer Society announced a new after care for Breast Cancer. I'm excited because I've felt like after everything I have been through, I was just left and fend for myself. Can't wait to go over this plan with Dr. Elia. New Year, New Me....

It has been some time since I wrote. I still have pain and taking my medication. My tumor makers have been negative for recurrence. I can say I am Cancer Free. I have taking a different look at life where material things objects don't matter. You know so many people have said that life is so short, and it is. Today, I live day to-day and taking in just keeping it simple. I've had a difficult situation where I had to face my feelings and it was overwhelming. I can't help they way I feel, I tried to explain why I felt this way but I don't think it was heard. Family is important. I struggle with no feedback but I guess it just it was suppose to me. I don't ever want to leave this earth with not saying I love you to those I care about. This next year I am going to focus on "Keeping it Simple" the best way that I can. It's funny when you are faced with your mortality everything changes. I will continue to Love more and Live my life to the fullest. To th...

Just diagnosed with diabetes, type 2. More meds just kicked me in the ass landing a ride in an ambulance. The nausea has been really unkind to me along with pain in my chest, headache and intense hotflashes. ER doctor told me this is most likely side effect in a bad way. This experience has scared me pretty bad. My meds will be changed and another follow up on Tuesday. Oh by the way, my markers are good, still cancer free...... Exercise, a new diet is my game plan.